you give me butterflies

I realised this week that I havent worked since September. I find that pretty amazing, considering. Don't ask me how I've done it, because I won't be able to tell you. I have no idea. But keeping that in mind, I've been to Gold Coast and Brisbane while still living in Sydney and I have just returned from Melbourne, having been to Meredith and had the best time of my life. The only downfall is that I am back in Canberra for a while and I am about $200 in debt to three different people. Sucks.

I need to recap my meredith weekend, basically for my own benefit, to see how much I can remember.

FRIDAY:
All packed and ready to go, Rohan came with the 12 seater van to Barkly St and half of us piled in. Off to Richmond to pick up the rest of the troops and get the tent etc. Blah blah blah driving for like 2hrs to our destination to find that there was like, 5km worth of cars lined up to get through the gates that opened at 1pm. It was 12pm and we were lucky enough to have an artist pass so skipped all the bullshit, got in within like 5mins and smooth sailed along to the part where we had to put the tent up. Shit was good, until it started pissing down with rain!!! So how did we deal with it? Sit under the marquee and in the van, getting absolutely and utterly WASTED. I drank a lot of green apple UDL's and goon with Pine Orange juice. Had a nap with Ryan and then fast forward to about 1am when I was getting ready for Holy Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGZZZZZZZZ ABSOLUTE HIGHLIGHT of my night. I was quite higha nd it was just the most amazing thing to listen to and watch. They were all huddled in a little circle and interacted with each other so much, just smiling and laughing and head banging and it made me so happy to the point during one of the songs I yelled out at the top of my lungs "I AM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE!" Ummmm. Then I cant remember anything else... Oh yeah, being more drunk and going to the bar and Ross being totally fucked and Ryan being TOTALLY EVEN MORE DRUNK omggggg and then he threw up and then we went to bed in the freeeeezing cold tent. Yep.



SATURDAY/SUNDAY:
Wake up at 8 to be excited by the nice day. Oh no wait, thats just our blue and yellow tent decieveing me, thinking it was blue sky and sunny day. It's still fucking grey. Cant get out of bed until i was desperate for food and it was time for Tame Impala at 11am. They were amazing, as expected. Hare Krishna stand wasnt open yet. Bummer. Saw my new friend Em though, who became my festival besty, otherwise known as "festy". Fast forward to more hangs with our crew/walking around/drinking/prize inducing to about 11pm when MGMT were set to play. They were SHIT. No crowd interaction or even between each other. Their encore was Kids though, which was good. I happened to have a mild anxiety attack during and afterward and couldnt continue the night surrounded by people. Spent the rest of the night in the van with Kiri and MIng just having mad chats and drinking more booze. We listened to the whole rest of the night though, including Yacht Club DJs and Pilooski. YEW. Did not have one wink of sleep that night and just kept charging. More and more people came to visit us in the van, which was fun. Ended up at about 8.30 taking a very odd breakfast, which set me up for the rest of the day. I REALLLLLLLY wanted to help pack up the tent (xtc), but just couldnt physically do it (haus).

Progressing on. Long story short, ROss and I ended up at Nevereverland at Sidney Myer Music Bowl. We made it for Hercules and Love Affair and I sat in the grass and listened to Klaxons and Cut Copy. By this stage I was really paranoid and I swear everyone was looking at me. If only they werent wearing imaginary ponchos, traipsing around in the imaginary mud and if only it stopped imaginary raining. Then it might have been ok. Hahaha. Regardless I made awesome new friends, which I continued to party with at the after party at third class. Probably my last third class experience, and boy was it a good one.

LA LA LA DI DA. Didnt sleep until 5am Monday morning. Probably the heaviest weekend I have ever had, never been so illicitly intoxicated, EVER before. I had the best time. I now have a Melbourne family who I miss very much. ANyway. Im tired of typing and going to go listen to more Alicia Keys now.

But here is our before and after photos. Doesnt look too bad, but oh god, it was.

MEZZE DIP

Meredith. It's tomorrow. Holy shit. I have been waiting for this moment for months and months and months. Shame about the forecast though.

Friday: Rain, Low 10, High 24
Saturday: Possible thunderstorm, Low, 13, High, 21
Sunday: Showers, Low 11, High 18

BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ITS COLD IN HURR



I am now able to tell you what I am seeing and at what time.
FRIDAY:
Regurgitator at 12.30-1.20am
I have never seen these guys live but many people have said they're pretty good to see so I'm keen. Plus, I'll probably be completely wasted by now.

Holy Fuck at 1.50-2.40am
MY GOODNESS. I don't think I can imagine a more amazing moment than to see these guys in pitch black and under the stars. It's going to be freezing. I will be fucked.

SATURDAY:
Tame Impala at 11-11.40am
I'm kinda sad that their slot is during the day and not on Friday night but oh well, what can you do. I will just be gappy to be watching them.

The Bronx at 3.10-3.50pm
I reckon by now everyone is going to be super rowdy and really drunk. Exactly what I want to be watching the bronx. :)

MGMT at 11pm-12am
Wow. Same deal as Holy Fuck, can't believe I will be under the stars to watch this band! T'will be grand.

Pilooski at 5-7am
Not entirely sure how I am going to pull through on this one, but hey, I always manage to, right? Hahaha. Epic times to be had.

damned if you don't, damned if you do

I really, really hate being stressed. This shouldn't have happened. Please humanity, make it all better again. New friends are good though. AND, I had an amazing day. But have the WORST headache right now. Ergh.

But I was far away....

My body hates me. I spent all of Sunday night dancing the night away. Stupid dancing nonetheless, for at least five hours straight. This took place at Lot 33 in Kingston, Canberra, need I say more? The occasion was Crookers and it was ridiculously packed. We waited in line for at least half an hour and some people waited for THREE HOURS. What the fuck. Anyway, I spent all of yesterday not sleeping, and suffering, after about 12pm. By 2pm, I finally got some shut eye and felt a slightly better person for it. Today, my whole body aches, but particularly my back. My brain is still very scrambled and I need a shower. That is all.

Flying in darkness

Wow, SSQ really are the bees knees. I'm obsessed with Jet Town at the moment.

So anyway, last night was C-C-C-CRAZY. Kate stole a lot of drinks for us and then by the end of it I was her little apprentice. We were a team. Had a dance with Barney and was super good to see Elston. Shit got so hectic by the end of the night, we were officially wasted and for absolutely and utterly ZERO DOLLARS. Met some old guys out the front of Pie Face and for some reason they paid for our pies, despite their collective loss of $1400 at the races for Melbourne Cup. Chivalry is not dead. They also gave us cigarettes! Oh, what a night. I am suffering today and cant wait to go and eat wedges at the shaky. Also, I'm listening to the best band in the world, ESCAPE THE MUFF.


Some photos from the night, thanks to Kate's camera phone. These are some glasses we found at the bar. I love that my photo is blurry.








IDIOTS.

Going where the water tastes like wine

I wish I had more storage. I have nowhere to put all my clothes. My entire room is one huge mass of clothes and I don't know where to even begin to start cleaning it. I think I might start by having a shower.

Have been listening to this all day...soooo good.
MAGIC HAPPENS GODCAST
http://www.zshare.net/audio/502060703542129b/


Am getting this tattooed.

Halloween.

Friday the 31st of October 2008, was one of the best nights of my life. Spent the night at Duke Halloween party, but mostly across the road in storm water drains with acid party crew. I want to relive it alllllll over and over again.

Please don't tell me I'm dreaming

Having Mayday Parade withdrawals. Thank god for youtube.

These are words, BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

The world works in very mysterious ways. I am now looking very forward to going to Canberra next weekend for many a reason. One being the show at Pot Belly next Friday, $10 at 9pm.

Shit will be good. I also got a very unexpected call today, from someone who was very special to me in my last few years of living in Canberra. We haven't spoken in about 2 years, none less seen each other and I'm really excited about seeing him again.

So with all this happening in the future, I now have to remind myself of the past week I spent up in QLD; Gold Coast and Brisbane. It was awesome to see my new and old friends, spend a lot of time with Liz, learn more about myself and try to sort my life out.

I don't know what I want to do, I was thinking of moving up there but things don't seem to have really clicked the way I would have liked, despite the fun I had. I don't think I can see myself not living in the city. I just don't know. I can't be bothered to write it all down now. But there's too much. I feel like the biggest gypsy.






Love My Way season one and napping has taken up my time today. Bang Gang launch will take up tonight.

Don't you know it's true...

Reading Aikko's last blog made me, too, think about my blog titles. I mostly just name them by what im listening to or what's stuck in my head at the time. Explanation, yep.

In other news, QLD has been really fun. Catching up with people, being all over Gold Coast and Brisbane has been excellent. And its not even over yet. Still three more nights. Yay.

all your dreams are over now

A while ago now, much earlier this year, I thought about moving to QLD for a couple of reasons. One being that some of my friends were moving back there to do more of a series that they're on and I love them very much, but mainly that my Granny lives there in a nursing home in Brisbane and she's one of the most influential people in my life. She is now 91 and although still able, she's blind and not getting any younger. I didn't follow through with it because I was having such an awesome time in Sydney and didn't think that I would be able to leave. This has all been reviewed in the last few days. I worked at Vision Street Wear in Newtown and it was really struggling financially, due to many things, but let's not get into that. Anyway, they closed the shop down the other day. This was my main source of income and now I am fucking poor, have no job and am not feeling motivated to find another one. I want to study next year and do cinematography and/or film, or even just get some experience in the field, stat. I can get this said experience on the Gold Coast, as well as be closer to my Granny, therefore killing two birds with one stone. I've been feeling really disheartened by the fact that I can't find a feasible course in Sydney, too expensive/need experience/applications closed already etc. I feel as though I'm not really doing anything in Sydney except surviving by the skin of my teeth and I want to change this. I also realised that I already have amazing friends up there and meeting all the boys on the weekend heightened this. I'm talking to my Mum about it tonight to see what she thinks. I can live with my family in Brisbane and although they live in the sticks, I don't really mind because I'm not looking to really party a whole lot there, and if I'm going to, it will most likely be on the GC anyway. So yeah. That's what's seriously on my mind at the moment. Liz is driving up next week to spend some time there and I think I am going to go with her. It all depends on how much flights are to come back and whether or not I/my mum or dad are willing to pay. So just found some for $89 to Brisbane, thats not bad at all! So I really needed to write that all down. Shit is annoying, but TVOTR are coming next year and I really couldn't be happier about that.



I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance,
and I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast,
and I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance...
Fall fast, fall free, fall for me.
(yeah Jarrah I copied your blog style)

Best.

So Ceremony in Canberra was up there with my favourite show ever, the other being Outbreak, also in Canberra, sometime in 2007? I think by the time I had gotten to the Sydney 18+, we were all so tired, it just didn't live up to the greatness. Despite this, I enjoyed myself thoroughly throughout the entire weekend, hanging out with new and old friends, miss you Gold Coast, come back. Makes me want to go on road trips. Lessons I learnt were, don't ever take numerous no doz while drinking red bulls, don't ever listen to Jake and definitely consume more Hello Kitty candy spray.

My Favourite Advertisement.

Maybe I'm biased, because my dearest and oldest friend is on this and she is amazing in the black bob, but this ad rules.
Good one, Coke.

Thunder and Lightning

I have been wondering lately, what makes a friendship? The past year or so I have learned a lot about myself and other people. It makes me think about what I portray to others and how they would see me. I would like to think that I am someone to talk to when a friend is in need as well as some fun when the time is right, I also consider others in situations and get excited to see people. I do the best I can in seeing everyone but lately have been a huge recluse for unknown reasons and find myself distancing away from the people I love. In saying that, all I want in a friendship is that no matter how long it's been since I've seen you, it'll be like nothing has changed and we can still pick up where we left off.

MY WEEKEND
Friday: Nothing all day, except checking my lottery ticket and seeing Expatriate tonight!
Saturday: Nothing all day then Ross arrives at 7pm. WOOHOOOOOOO YAYAYAY He's djing at Floorspace then we're going to Em's party.
Sunday: Work, poo. Y+R are playing XRAYSPEX though, so if you're under 18, you should go. Then Flamingo Crash are playing Beach Rd at night so, it's going to be a Bondi party!



I hope I've won $3M.

Who and Whose Army?

Today I bought a lottery ticket for tomorrow night's Powerball. It was the first one I have ever bought and I hope to god it's lucky. Also, the time has come around for the Taipan and Repoman show that I wrote about a while ago. It's TOMORROW night at the Agincourt. I am so there with bells on, as last Saturday I arrived too late and missed them. I'm clearly awesome. Starts at 8.

Tonight I am making a yummy dinner. I got inspired by Sweetie and her Mum, who made me pesto gnocchi last night. So I'm making a similar dish but putting a whole lot of veggies in it. YUMMMM. Benny is coming over and we're going to watch Superbad. Speaking of Sweetie, her and I went for our first swim of the season last night at Cook and Phillip pool and swam 600m. We didn't want to over do it on the first go though so next visit we aim for a kilometre. So excited to get fit for Summer and for when it's warm enough, go to Boy Charlton, outdoor in the saltwater. Summer, be mine. I'm so unbelievably sick of the cold wind.

DREAM BOY EDIT

In watching the OC while being in Wollongong with Brooke, I have remembered how obsessed and crazy in love I was with Trey. He is the ultimate boy. I have now rekindled my love with him, and scream every time he comes on the screen. Boys that look like this, please inform me of your prescence.

My dream boy.

DRAZIC FOREVER

Picture post.

Because I'm usually updating from my hiptop, I obviously can't post pics. So I thought I'd make up for it now and share a small selection of some of my favourites.

50 Lions at Wollongong PCYC some time early 2007 I think. Tommy Dollars vs some little kid.

Slowburn, or it may have even been Top Gun at that stage, playing at my 18th in August 2006.

I am an awesome drunk. June 2006

Hmmm. Everything else on my photobucket is tooooo old.

Its suuuuuch a nice day, so Im sitting out my window listening to the Shins. Nothing will get in my way. Playing FBi 5th Birthday Party tonight and Earthdance tomorrow. Big things. Should be fun. Bring on Summmmerrrr

Bye Erskineville.

The life of the first house I moved into in Sydney is finally over. Almost everything is packed up and everyone is outsing back to the Gold Coast to shoot more of everyone's favourite mermaid show, H20: Just Add Water. I'm just here chillin' for the afternoon and it's super sad. I was lucky enough to live with three of the most amazing boys, Jamie, Burgess and Angus and my dear girl Cariba, with whom I've experienced over a year of memories. Calling out to everyone who has ever experienced anything at Henderson Rd, the end has come so soon and it's now time to say goodbye.

LYF.

Over the last few days, I have been even more pensive than I usually am and really thinking about the world. I just find it so strange that to survive we have to breath in oxygen through our lungs and drink water to hydrate. Even more weird that people are smart enough to create technology that transports us place to place, record music through a microphone, instruments and cords, make a still picture with a lens and a light, etc etc etc.
Life is extremely odd. I am really starting to appreciate everything I have.

Haunted House

Lately all I have been listening to is Fleetwood Mac, Nirvana, TV on the Radio and Smashing Pumpkins. I have also been listening to a few local bands that I have really been into. Click on the band name to go to their myspace.

CIRCLE PIT
Have only seen these gems twice, one being the other night and I was totally blown away!! They're playing tomorrow night, Thursday 21st August at Oxford Art Factory and it's free so I think you should come. I'm banned from Hot Damn anyway haha. Otherwise check them out in Marrickville on Saturday.


REPTILES
These guys are from Melbourne and I first learnt about them from a Vice that they were in. Then I checked them out and I really liked it. Met them the other day on Crown St where Jack intorduced me to them as "Reptiles" which made me lol. Didn't go to their show at Qbar which I'm now angry about, as I have been listening to them again and it's awesome.

TAIPAN
KVLT HARDCORE IS DAGGERS HARDCORE. That's all I seem to see/hear lately. I'm actually so so so so so excited to see Taipan as Benny has shown me all the tracks for the 7" but to see those dudes in action after all I've heard is anticipation plus. They're playing at the Agincourt on Thursday 18th September with Deathcage and Repoman. Come.

REPOMAN
Same story as above really. I can't wait to see them. Same show. AGINCOURT DO IT DO IT DO IT. It's been a long time coming.

and of course, ART VS. SCIENCE
Ages ago saw these guys at Disco Punx and I loved it. Then all of a sudden there was so much hype around them, which I thought is really well deserved. Can't wait to see them again on Friday 29th August at Disco Punx again, at Phoenix. $10 entry at 10pm. It'll be a super duper fun night.

Gave up waiting at seventeen past midnight.

Last night I was a life sized diamond for the Sydney Pnau show at Hordern Pavilion. Anita fell off stage being a life sized strawberry and dislocated her knee at the very end during the encore. It was soooo awful!!!! We spent the rest of the night in hospital. I can't wait for next weekend as I get to see Tame Impala! Woooo and tonight Ross is in town. WOO

12th street and 8th

Fuck anxiety. I get it ever, ever so rarely, this time teamed with mild claustrophobia. Had a weird, annoying, bad day but there were a few good things to happen, where I realised I have amazing friends. Thank god for them or else I would have been curled up in a ball in bed all night. Which im doing now so doesn't really matter but oh well.

It's good to be home. I had a really fun weekend in canberra, but to come back only to be welcomed by the rush that Sydney upholds. I have only JUST stopped, in my own bed and house. It feels quite nice. Listening to N.Y No Wave cd that I borrowed off Catherine. I wish I could have met James Chance. The headphone is hurting my ear though, and I can't stop moving my lip rings. Fuckfuckfuck. Bring on that stutter and shaky hands.

On a lighter note, today Benny gave me the most amazing Polaroid camera I've ever seen. Thank you, I love you so muchhhhh! <3 It pops up like I have seen no other do, its silver and black and looks like a robot head. It takes 1200 film and costs $32.95, so as a result I have only taken three photos, one of the husband, one of the son, and one of me (wife/mum). Now I have a family portrait on my wall, right next to my bed. Pretty rad.

Taking this hindrence one day at a time, hopefully I feel a lot better tomorrow. Black and blue is on, and I'm BROKE so that's a good thing. I'm going to get really wasted. I hope.

It's only two sleeps now until my true baby angel Ross gets here hahahaha. Can't wait. It's been way too long. I need my Ross!!!!!! No one else listens to all the absolute shit I talk like he does. Iiiii llllooovvveee yoooouuuu.

Thursday = work, black & blue, longneck in my fridge, prbz hot damn, prbz health. Get stupidly yucky and most likely end up going home at a ridiculous hour, whether that be super early or late, who knows.
Friday = day off, recovering, seeing my sister and her mum, meeting Ross, seeing Ashley and Amandah, going to see Operator Please at the HORDERN w/ Pnau (ew, but anticipating seeing them live, as long as I go temporarily deaf during ANY of their singles) then Bandits and stupid party times. I hope it all goes away before tomorrow.

Typing quota for the night has officially been filled.
Xoxoxo

Thank god I live in Sydney.

It's Wednesday, I go to the pub to say hello to one friend, and I find about 100 more. Literally. It's amazing how this could happen in the one suburb too. I've found that living in Surry Hills has turned me extremely lazy. Not in a slob kind of way, but more in a location kind of way. If it's not within a five to ten minute walk, then it's too far. This, I have learnt, is a bad thing, especially since I work in Newtown. In saying this, I do enjoy going for my visits to said Ntown, but truth be told, it feels like another world now. HAH! Listen to me! I have turned into a total 2010 bitch. But if you lived here, you would understand. I really need to snap out of it though, go places I haven't been before or something. But realistically living here means that cabs are no longer, I live right in the city, thankfully on a quiet street, I live in an amazing house with two lovely people, most of my friends live around the corner and life really can't get much better.
Which brings me to my next point of having to go to Canberra this weekend. I really am looking forward to it, to see my family, the friends that will be there, old memories, etc.... but everytime I go it becomes more and more foreign to me. I find it so hard to believe that 99% of the friends I had during my years there still live in our nations capital. I feel that everyone is always complaining to me about how they hate it/want to move away/want to move out, and everything really seems to go around in circles and everyones always depressed. I know all of that! That's why I got away! Again, I sound like a huge snob, but in this instance, I definitely don't feel bad about it. I said bon voyage as soon as school was out in 2006. I didn't even go to my year 12 graduation! I came to Sydney with nothing long term lined up for me, no savings and a handful of friends. I now go out every single week, don't get bored, have good places to go, have amazing friends to party with, and all with a very below average fortnightly pay cheque. So anyway, the point of this rant was to say thank you to the Crix for making me realise how lucky I am to be living in the SYDNEY TOWN. And thanks to all my friends for being the best. Life wouldn't be this amazing without you.

The Pros and Cons of being sick.

+
Lying in bed ALLLLL day.
Being disgustingly lazy.
Wearing immensely ugly clothes and no make up whilst it being totally acceptable.
Taking long hot showers and not feeling bad about water consumption.
Sleeping way more than normal hours.
Not having to do anything.
Watching youtube a lot.

-
Having absolutely no motivation.
Coughing so much your ribs and abs hurt.
Feeling generally SHIT.
Having a room strewn with tissues.
Not being able to eat chocolate.
Drinking too many liquids.
Getting a sore back from lying down all day.
Not being with it, at all.

I feel a bit better today though. Woohoo! One more day in bed... then I'm going to Canberra on Friday until Tuesday wooooo

The 5 Step Guide to Win at Life

I have compiled this for how I think people should be, in regards to general living and communicating with others.

1. Be good at hugs. Everyone loves a good cuddle, whether its as a greeting, embracing someone after a long time from seeing them or in bed with someone you like. Nothing beats a great hug.

2. Be able to laugh at satirical and cynical things. There's nothing worse than people that complain about stuff when they just can't understand the humour.

3. Have manners. It will get you where you need to go in life! I will generally do anything for people that say please and thank you, and if they don't, I will more often wait until the words are said. (Friends are usually an exception! But when strangers ask you for a lighter and don't use manners? Gahhhh!!!)

4. Have some sort of style beyond the norm. Coming from canbizzle I know how awful it is to see a group of girls all wearing the same thing on a night out. I find it hard to believe that people are so clueless and can't look outside the square. Go to an op shop! Or buy a damn band shirt! We're lucky anyway, there's actually brands that are out there that are plain and cheap, aka cheap mondays and american apparel. Get a cluuuuue!

5. Look after your friends and family. These are the people who make you who you are, so if they're happy, you generally will be too. And it makes you feel warm inside. All you need is a piece of paper and a texta to make an I love you card!



In other news, my tooth still hurts like hell. And im going to go make some noodles now. I want to be cooked for again haha.

1025

Its almost 11 and I'm still in bed. My mouth is absolutely KILLLLLING me. My wisdom teeth are coming out, most prominently the bottom right one today. They've been coming up on and off for months and months but this one is definitely the worst. Woke up at 4am writhing in pain and no solution to the problem. Maybe ill get some numbing gel! Bahhhh
There are dudes in overalls painting the house right across from my window behind me, just as well I slept in a jumper!
Today im being a bum. Just going to hang about and look for jobs. Can't wait to go to Catherine's and chill! Cos she's a neighbour now. SURRY HILLS MASSIF. Also going to go return a pair of gucci glasses to their rightful owner.
FUCK OFF TOOTH

crazy.

And here we are. Finally on a freaking blog. Should be getting the zine done but oh well.
It's been a weird week and feels like its gone forever, but its nonetheless been totally good...
I've seen some bands, got absolutely wasted a number of times, am now married, been surrounded by pilgrims, a bug flew in my mouth, stole four pairs of jeans (who leaves them out at a launch party? After 6 vodkas of course they're going to be free) and have just been generally been bumming around.
Im mostly happy!
Yeah woo. And im taking my sister to the zoo tomorrow. Haha