Monday, February 9, 2009

dancing in the dark all of the time

This weekend I went to Melbourne.
There was too much drama to be had, all I seemed to be doing was stressing and nothing was going right. I also experienced being in the hottest place on Earth. 7.2.09 48°C. All in all though I had an amazing time and got to see Proxy at Roxanne, which was sick. I love you everyone in Melbourne. I'll be back soon.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

gadda da vida

I can't explain where I've been, or the things I have or haven't been doing.
Forgive me, I'll be back with the world one day.
Soz gaiz, bbl.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

say what you want, but i don't mind

I'm going to move to Melbourne later this year. I'm doing my resume tonight to get some kind of well paying job at home and then hopefully have at least $5000 saved up to move PROPERLY and get myself started all over again. It's something I really need to do, just to see what happens. I think I've grown up even more over the last few months and I need some different surroundings. Sydney is and always will be a huge part of my life, but I don't reckon it'll mind if I take some time out to move to another city for a while. I'm probably looking to move around July/August and I'm definitely going to be there for my birthday on August 26. Oh, and I'm getting my liscence tomorrow.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

she's lost control

Yep, lost my mind.
I'm a recluse, my phone is broke, the only way to contact me is on the internet.
Do I feel bad about it? No, not really.

Things that are annoying me:
*most people
*not having money
*not being in Melbourne or Gold Coast.

Things that make me happy:
*being at home
*some people

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


It's weird:
That I can look behind me and have no one there.
To cross the road without having to even look for cars.
To walk for twenty minutes to find the closest shop.
To have to catch a bus for thirty minutes to get to the city.
For the houses to be so big, everywhere.
To be surrounded by mountains, aka: the valley.
To remember how amazing my oldest friends are.

Being home isnt half bad.

Friday, January 2, 2009

two thousand and hate overview

Stolen from Aikko.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Played at a big festivals such as Field Day and Parklife!

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make them, but this year I'm going to learn how to crochet and macrame.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Madeleine had beautiful baby Hanne.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No one close to me, but it seemed like a lot of people that were close to my friends died.

5. What countries did you visit?
I dreamt of visiting New York and Canada.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Direction. Knowing what I want to do in life, instead of being a party animal.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Mine and Marissa's birthday party, because it was the party of the year.
Meredith Music Festival, because I was with my amazing "family" and saw some of my favourite bands.
Club Mod, for hanging with you know who.
Gold Coast with Liz.
Ceremony at Tuggeranong Youthie

9. What was your biggest failure?
Having to move home.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Being sick every month, a culmination of not looking after myself and being prone to sickness. The worst was when I was bed ridden for about a week and literally couldnt leave the house or I would collapse!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
It was a last minute 2008 purchase, bought on NYE, but the HORACE macrame/fringing black bag I bought from Capital L, the most expensive item I have bought in a very long time. Other than that, probably any op shop bargain I found.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food and booze. No word of a lie.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Melbourne, every Tame Impala show, Gold Coast, friends, occasionally getting large amounts of money.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Jet Town-SSQ, Far Away-Cut Copy, HA-HTRK, Diamond Girl, Day and Night-Kid Cudi and probably a million others.

Compared to this time last year, are you:

17. Thinner or fatter?
I dont know, I hate scales. I would probably say, very fluctuating.

18. Richer or poorer?
Poorer, overall.

19. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Explore my city/country, sort myself out.

20. What do you wish you’d done less of?

21. How will you be spending Christmas?
Christmas is gone, I spent it with my Mum and brother eating too much cheese.

24. What was your favorite TV program?

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I cant put a finger on someone I particularly hate right now.

26. What was the best book you read?

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

28. What did you want and get?
I always get what I want.

29. What did you want and not get?
One thing I wanted was to not be so shy in certain situations. I dont think I rectified that.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Always Superbad and Jump Tomorrow.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 20, I had dinner at Bettys on my actual birthday with my amazing friends downstairs and then as said already, had the best party ever with Marissa at her place at Hibernian.

32. What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Constantly being surrounded by amazing and inspirational people.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Black, black, black.

34. What kept you sane?
Knowing I was living the life.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Callan Mulvey, always and always haha Heartbreak High and then Underbelly? Swoon.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The lead up to the USA election, wondering who was going to be President elect, and really making a difference to how our world was going to operate. Also, the recession. This is annoying and probably why I lost my job etc etc etc. Get a grip, world.

37. Who did you miss?
Everyone who didnt live in the same state as me.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Oh wow. I met sooooo many incredible people this year. Probably Chloe though.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
Look after yourself and those close to you at all times. If you're going to be dumb, be careful.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Oh wow. I think I have to think about that one.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

you give me butterflies

I realised this week that I havent worked since September. I find that pretty amazing, considering. Don't ask me how I've done it, because I won't be able to tell you. I have no idea. But keeping that in mind, I've been to Gold Coast and Brisbane while still living in Sydney and I have just returned from Melbourne, having been to Meredith and had the best time of my life. The only downfall is that I am back in Canberra for a while and I am about $200 in debt to three different people. Sucks.

I need to recap my meredith weekend, basically for my own benefit, to see how much I can remember.

All packed and ready to go, Rohan came with the 12 seater van to Barkly St and half of us piled in. Off to Richmond to pick up the rest of the troops and get the tent etc. Blah blah blah driving for like 2hrs to our destination to find that there was like, 5km worth of cars lined up to get through the gates that opened at 1pm. It was 12pm and we were lucky enough to have an artist pass so skipped all the bullshit, got in within like 5mins and smooth sailed along to the part where we had to put the tent up. Shit was good, until it started pissing down with rain!!! So how did we deal with it? Sit under the marquee and in the van, getting absolutely and utterly WASTED. I drank a lot of green apple UDL's and goon with Pine Orange juice. Had a nap with Ryan and then fast forward to about 1am when I was getting ready for Holy Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGZZZZZZZZ ABSOLUTE HIGHLIGHT of my night. I was quite higha nd it was just the most amazing thing to listen to and watch. They were all huddled in a little circle and interacted with each other so much, just smiling and laughing and head banging and it made me so happy to the point during one of the songs I yelled out at the top of my lungs "I AM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE!" Ummmm. Then I cant remember anything else... Oh yeah, being more drunk and going to the bar and Ross being totally fucked and Ryan being TOTALLY EVEN MORE DRUNK omggggg and then he threw up and then we went to bed in the freeeeezing cold tent. Yep.

Wake up at 8 to be excited by the nice day. Oh no wait, thats just our blue and yellow tent decieveing me, thinking it was blue sky and sunny day. It's still fucking grey. Cant get out of bed until i was desperate for food and it was time for Tame Impala at 11am. They were amazing, as expected. Hare Krishna stand wasnt open yet. Bummer. Saw my new friend Em though, who became my festival besty, otherwise known as "festy". Fast forward to more hangs with our crew/walking around/drinking/prize inducing to about 11pm when MGMT were set to play. They were SHIT. No crowd interaction or even between each other. Their encore was Kids though, which was good. I happened to have a mild anxiety attack during and afterward and couldnt continue the night surrounded by people. Spent the rest of the night in the van with Kiri and MIng just having mad chats and drinking more booze. We listened to the whole rest of the night though, including Yacht Club DJs and Pilooski. YEW. Did not have one wink of sleep that night and just kept charging. More and more people came to visit us in the van, which was fun. Ended up at about 8.30 taking a very odd breakfast, which set me up for the rest of the day. I REALLLLLLLY wanted to help pack up the tent (xtc), but just couldnt physically do it (haus).

Progressing on. Long story short, ROss and I ended up at Nevereverland at Sidney Myer Music Bowl. We made it for Hercules and Love Affair and I sat in the grass and listened to Klaxons and Cut Copy. By this stage I was really paranoid and I swear everyone was looking at me. If only they werent wearing imaginary ponchos, traipsing around in the imaginary mud and if only it stopped imaginary raining. Then it might have been ok. Hahaha. Regardless I made awesome new friends, which I continued to party with at the after party at third class. Probably my last third class experience, and boy was it a good one.

LA LA LA DI DA. Didnt sleep until 5am Monday morning. Probably the heaviest weekend I have ever had, never been so illicitly intoxicated, EVER before. I had the best time. I now have a Melbourne family who I miss very much. ANyway. Im tired of typing and going to go listen to more Alicia Keys now.

But here is our before and after photos. Doesnt look too bad, but oh god, it was.