all your dreams are over now

A while ago now, much earlier this year, I thought about moving to QLD for a couple of reasons. One being that some of my friends were moving back there to do more of a series that they're on and I love them very much, but mainly that my Granny lives there in a nursing home in Brisbane and she's one of the most influential people in my life. She is now 91 and although still able, she's blind and not getting any younger. I didn't follow through with it because I was having such an awesome time in Sydney and didn't think that I would be able to leave. This has all been reviewed in the last few days. I worked at Vision Street Wear in Newtown and it was really struggling financially, due to many things, but let's not get into that. Anyway, they closed the shop down the other day. This was my main source of income and now I am fucking poor, have no job and am not feeling motivated to find another one. I want to study next year and do cinematography and/or film, or even just get some experience in the field, stat. I can get this said experience on the Gold Coast, as well as be closer to my Granny, therefore killing two birds with one stone. I've been feeling really disheartened by the fact that I can't find a feasible course in Sydney, too expensive/need experience/applications closed already etc. I feel as though I'm not really doing anything in Sydney except surviving by the skin of my teeth and I want to change this. I also realised that I already have amazing friends up there and meeting all the boys on the weekend heightened this. I'm talking to my Mum about it tonight to see what she thinks. I can live with my family in Brisbane and although they live in the sticks, I don't really mind because I'm not looking to really party a whole lot there, and if I'm going to, it will most likely be on the GC anyway. So yeah. That's what's seriously on my mind at the moment. Liz is driving up next week to spend some time there and I think I am going to go with her. It all depends on how much flights are to come back and whether or not I/my mum or dad are willing to pay. So just found some for $89 to Brisbane, thats not bad at all! So I really needed to write that all down. Shit is annoying, but TVOTR are coming next year and I really couldn't be happier about that.



I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance,
and I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast,
and I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance...
Fall fast, fall free, fall for me.
(yeah Jarrah I copied your blog style)

Best.

So Ceremony in Canberra was up there with my favourite show ever, the other being Outbreak, also in Canberra, sometime in 2007? I think by the time I had gotten to the Sydney 18+, we were all so tired, it just didn't live up to the greatness. Despite this, I enjoyed myself thoroughly throughout the entire weekend, hanging out with new and old friends, miss you Gold Coast, come back. Makes me want to go on road trips. Lessons I learnt were, don't ever take numerous no doz while drinking red bulls, don't ever listen to Jake and definitely consume more Hello Kitty candy spray.

My Favourite Advertisement.

Maybe I'm biased, because my dearest and oldest friend is on this and she is amazing in the black bob, but this ad rules.
Good one, Coke.

Thunder and Lightning

I have been wondering lately, what makes a friendship? The past year or so I have learned a lot about myself and other people. It makes me think about what I portray to others and how they would see me. I would like to think that I am someone to talk to when a friend is in need as well as some fun when the time is right, I also consider others in situations and get excited to see people. I do the best I can in seeing everyone but lately have been a huge recluse for unknown reasons and find myself distancing away from the people I love. In saying that, all I want in a friendship is that no matter how long it's been since I've seen you, it'll be like nothing has changed and we can still pick up where we left off.

MY WEEKEND
Friday: Nothing all day, except checking my lottery ticket and seeing Expatriate tonight!
Saturday: Nothing all day then Ross arrives at 7pm. WOOHOOOOOOO YAYAYAY He's djing at Floorspace then we're going to Em's party.
Sunday: Work, poo. Y+R are playing XRAYSPEX though, so if you're under 18, you should go. Then Flamingo Crash are playing Beach Rd at night so, it's going to be a Bondi party!



I hope I've won $3M.

Who and Whose Army?

Today I bought a lottery ticket for tomorrow night's Powerball. It was the first one I have ever bought and I hope to god it's lucky. Also, the time has come around for the Taipan and Repoman show that I wrote about a while ago. It's TOMORROW night at the Agincourt. I am so there with bells on, as last Saturday I arrived too late and missed them. I'm clearly awesome. Starts at 8.

Tonight I am making a yummy dinner. I got inspired by Sweetie and her Mum, who made me pesto gnocchi last night. So I'm making a similar dish but putting a whole lot of veggies in it. YUMMMM. Benny is coming over and we're going to watch Superbad. Speaking of Sweetie, her and I went for our first swim of the season last night at Cook and Phillip pool and swam 600m. We didn't want to over do it on the first go though so next visit we aim for a kilometre. So excited to get fit for Summer and for when it's warm enough, go to Boy Charlton, outdoor in the saltwater. Summer, be mine. I'm so unbelievably sick of the cold wind.

DREAM BOY EDIT

In watching the OC while being in Wollongong with Brooke, I have remembered how obsessed and crazy in love I was with Trey. He is the ultimate boy. I have now rekindled my love with him, and scream every time he comes on the screen. Boys that look like this, please inform me of your prescence.

My dream boy.

DRAZIC FOREVER

Picture post.

Because I'm usually updating from my hiptop, I obviously can't post pics. So I thought I'd make up for it now and share a small selection of some of my favourites.

50 Lions at Wollongong PCYC some time early 2007 I think. Tommy Dollars vs some little kid.

Slowburn, or it may have even been Top Gun at that stage, playing at my 18th in August 2006.

I am an awesome drunk. June 2006

Hmmm. Everything else on my photobucket is tooooo old.

Its suuuuuch a nice day, so Im sitting out my window listening to the Shins. Nothing will get in my way. Playing FBi 5th Birthday Party tonight and Earthdance tomorrow. Big things. Should be fun. Bring on Summmmerrrr

Bye Erskineville.

The life of the first house I moved into in Sydney is finally over. Almost everything is packed up and everyone is outsing back to the Gold Coast to shoot more of everyone's favourite mermaid show, H20: Just Add Water. I'm just here chillin' for the afternoon and it's super sad. I was lucky enough to live with three of the most amazing boys, Jamie, Burgess and Angus and my dear girl Cariba, with whom I've experienced over a year of memories. Calling out to everyone who has ever experienced anything at Henderson Rd, the end has come so soon and it's now time to say goodbye.